When the young Ali Douglas decided she wanted a career on television, she found a way to make it happen.

She pushed and pushed until she landed her first TV job. But as her public profile grew, her life got harder, stranger, and more chaotic. From the outside, Ali appeared glamorous and successful. But really, she was frequently lonely and depressed. Ali had achieved what she'd always wanted, but she wasn't happy.

She was 35 years old when she was finally diagnosed with bipolar II - and everything changed. That's when she embarked on a whole new adventure - a new relationship, a son, and a new way of looking at life. Ali doesn't hold anything back. She lays her life bare, and takes us on a journey from her darkest days to her brighter future, showing us how she learned to find beauty in chaos.